Motherhood

New year, new name.

I've decided to ditch One Eyed Raven. I feel a name that combines my new little necklace venture and my new role as a mother works better for me.

With every new year, I'm afraid I join the masses when it comes to new years resolutions and giving myself a kick up the backside. I've been meaning to blog PROPERLY for years now, in fact, new year 2 years ago was when I began blogging. Fast forward and I'm now married with baby and I very much feel like my whole life is stuck on fast forward!

This weekend I treated myself to a new laptop, one that hadn't been hit repeatedly because I once was a proud owner of a slightly infuriating and rubbish (sorry) boyfriend and our main form of long distance communication was via keyboard and the subject was often of argumentative material.

Anyway, here I am giving it another shot. I enjoy writing, I only wish I would remember this for longer than a day.

So I appear to own a 7 month old baby girl. Apparently once you become a mother, you shouldn't blink because your baby will grow at an alarming rate. I know it's often said but WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE?! 

The past seven months have been a complete whirlwind of absolute pleasure and exhaustion. Bearing in mind I spent 18 months signed off of work with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome in 2011, I feel I've been handling Mum exhaustion reasonably well, albeit with more than a little help from bessie mate caffeine. 

Every "mum quote cliché" has definitely been used ten fold. The majority of expectations I had of myself as a mother have been thrown in the nappy bin (not with a nappy sack like the majority of her soiled nappies. Oops.)

*UPDATE* I'm now typing with Bronte on my boob. 

Multi tasking doesn't really go to plan half the time. I'm awful at leaving Bronte happily to play by herself so I can do the washing up. I result in watching her play for 30 minutes instead and then hastily hide all the washing up in the full dishwasher before I have a visitor. I feel guilty for ignoring her or doing anything more than getting ready in the morning and I'm working hard on changing this! 

I've made some truly brilliant mum friends who I rate so highly. Baby social lives are actually pretty awesome and I'm having the time of my life really, even if I'm a living zombie most days.

Bronte still hasn't slept through the night yet, in fact, it's been pretty awful. I've had the pleasure of hourly wake ups most nights, thank goodness for concealer and caffeine. I wouldn't be half the mother I am if it weren't for them.

I'll try and conclude this post now as to not bore you, I could go on forever. We'll save the rest for another day. Although the past 7 months have been the most tiring and testing of my existence, they have genuinely been the best. I plan on blogging about my fashion and life with Bronte and Ben, let's hope this new years resolution sticks!